Wednesday, May 19, 2010

art therapy and more

Last night, I had to have some art therapy. You know the kind...when you sit down and all of the bad stuff just ooozes away? Plus, I made something for someone else and I always feel better when I do something for someone else and take my mind off of myself.

I didn't have a great day, yesterday. Most of my days are good. For the most part, my life is good. But yesterday, some yuckiness surfaced. It was dealt with and resolved, but painful. I always joke that my blog is "the life I wish I had." For the most part, I am realistic about my life- I just usually tend to leave the bad parts out. There are not a lot of bad parts in my life, but when life gets yucky, I tend to shut down. Maybe it is self-preservation- like a turtle pulling her head into her shell. I just tend to retreat and don't have a lot to say. If I am quiet, I usually don't feel well or something is wrong. My friend and colleague, Mary Jo, is moving to a different department at the university. I will miss her and made this for her going-away gift.
I made it last night and gave it to her, today. She likes birds.

I have been reading our book club selection, which was my choice, and I like the book a lot. It makes me think about a lot of different things. I am in the middle section where she is at the spiritual retreat place, (ashram) and the way she learns to seek God through prayer and meditation is interesting. I don't feel I've ever really meditated, although I have spent what I would consider a great time in prayer. Prayer isn't something I would want to lie about, but I believe I pray every day at some point or another during the day. If no other time, when I go to bed, before going to sleep. It helps me to relax. I've written about my faith in the past. I believe faith is a very personal part of my life. I don't like people to be in my face about things, or shove stuff down my throat. I know what I know. I don't really enjoy arguing politics or religion. And I don't like judgmental people who tell me I'm not this or that I'm that. There is only One who may judge me. Overall, at this point in my life, I feel as if I am fairly liberal, but I take comfort in my faith.
When I went to bed last night, I was still feeling sad and I cried as I prayed. I asked God to show his love to me and that I might feel his touch in a special way today.
When I first moved to Bloomington, I went to work at a law firm. I didn't really care for working at the law firm and was only there for three months before I got on at the university, but in that time, I made some good friendships. I call them "my law girls." They are both about the same age as my daughter. (Mid-late twenties.) We had not seen one another for while, so I emailed to see if they would like to go to lunch today and one of them said yes. I felt so much better after seeing her and talking with her. So, I felt as if my prayer had been answered.
Today was a good day. I was tired because I didn't sleep very well and didn't feel great, because my angst tends to affect me physiologically, too- but it was a good day. I will sleep better tonight.


Chatty Crone said...

Sleep well tonight my friend. I hope you feel better in the morning.


Cheryl said...

It's good to know what you need and when you need it. Reaching out seems to be the answer to so many problems.

Sandy, Sisters of Season said...

Hi Cheryl, Prayer works . . I heard this one time and it made so much sense . . "the tragedy of our day is not unanswered prayer but unoffered prayer". God is the center of my life and I hope my kids (big grown kids) feels the same way too. Cute creation for your friend, love the bird, anything with nature I just love. I love to make things too for my friends. Have a Happy Thursday kiddo! Sandy:O)

Cherie Wilson said...

Sweet post. Thankyou for your authenticity! I just hate those days our heart gets pierced. Love that you go inward then outward and what a wonderful created piece of joy you made!! Art is such a part of our spiritual walk. God is so good to give us this gift! You've inspired me to play....XO!

KleinsteMotte said...

Glad to hear your prayer was answered.

besswess said...

Beautiful post. See you in a little while. Love you!

besswess said...

Beautiful post. See you in a little while. Love you!

Lisa said...

What a touching post! I hope the art therapy, blogging, and pending lunch date with the law friend help the restlessness....days upon days of no sun certainly can't be helping.

I hope today was better! (Perhaps we need to find another art class together, eh?!?!)

Angela said...

I'm a little late reading your post but I do hope that you are feeling better today! The Lord does answer our prayers! Sometimes it might be big and sometimes it might be small but I'll take anything He gives me!


ClassyChassy said...

Art therapy is good for the soul!!! That, and PET therapy!!! Can't be beat!

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